" Your greatest battle will always be between what you feel and what you know."
M. Williams
so i just got to that point, that i know what to do but it's impossible for me to do it. for some stupid reason i finally reached this point while i was writing an exam and instead of analyzing the relationship between two characters i started analyzing their break-up. turned out to be fabulous, because later on in the book they actually will break up (more or less though, the woman leaves her husband for an indian king, but who the hell cares?!), who would have guessed that?! i probably should more often think about something totally different than the topic - well, IF it happens that i should really think at school. not so often, for some sad reason.
but thats not the point.

have you ever felt like really seeing the path beneath your feet, like nearly already walking on it but refusing to move a single bone? i know i have to keep on going but i friggin' hate this absolutely gross path. it's like walking on glass or needles - if you turn out to be some fanatic needles lier (i searched for the exact name, i swear, i just didn't find it. if you know better than me - prove!): it's terrible! stop that!
i wish i could just stand here and stay, because i like this place. i like how it smells, how it looks, how it makes me feel. i like everything about it. everything - but the glass. somehow nothing seems to work out right and as i want it to, there's always this little nib which hurts my soles and makes me going forward. damn it. what's its problem? can't it just leave me alone and go prick somebody else? yes indeed i confess i'm not a good athlete at all but that won't ever be my aim. there are enough jocks out there who might need a little prick to move their lazy feet - but not me! i like being lazy and i want to be lazy and i don't want it to be annoying me. got it? okay even if it might haven't - i did. i just understood why i have to move and how it's meant to be, just give me some time. i'll fix it. i'll fix whatever you've broke that there are so many shivers and needles. i'll try the goodbye
N.
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